captainsnoop:

people act like unfollowing and blocking are these big statements that only hard ass bastards do

i promise you they arent. Ive blocked and unfollowed people for saying they thought toaster strudels were bad. you shape your own online experience. you domt need that negativity. nobody online is worth shit

puddingskinmcgee:

Honestly shoutout to all the ppl who are trying hard to be more positive and make meaningful changes in their lives and work towards recovery because this shits hard and people definitely don’t say it enough, but focusing on recovery is very difficult and the progress you make is so valuable, just by choosing to work towards bettering yourself you have already come so far and that’s something to be really proud of

redwoodriver:

sometimes my inner demons go “maybe you were wrong for cutting certain people off” but then i remember that I chose to prioritize empathy, and love, and understanding, and healthy relationships, and these people chose to prioritize their own enjoyment of nasty, disgusting things over people’s safety, and realize that nah i was right and im a better person for it

embracingwild:

The middle of recovery is awful. It does not feel good. There are moments where it will be clear why you are doing this, ones that will take your breath away. But a majority of the time you will question everything, your thoughts will be racing so much that you will feel like you can’t breathe. You will spend countless days wondering why things can’t be quiet, wondering why you are bothering to work so hard when not fighting would be effortless. Recovery does not feel good. If you are looking around you and are ashamed because you are not in love with this process, please, listen to me. Take a deep breath- It’s okay. It’s okay to hate it. It’s okay to say it sucks. It’s okay to want to give up, to struggle immensely, to be angry, to be uncomfortable (you should be!). and it’s okay to not understand why your smile still feels empty when your stomach is full again.
Recovery does not feel good.
For goodness sake, I hate it!!! Do not mistake my positivity for perfection. I am not walking through this fire gracefully. I burn and fall and become ashes. And every morning I rise and face the flames over and over again.

So please, do not beat yourself up if you are feeling like a failure for not being happy and perfect. Healing is not linear. And you are still brave.